In my quest to be love ‘n’ light and high vibes, I must admit that I fell off the wagon this week. I know that hiccups will happen occasionally, but I’m disappointed in myself because despite all my positive work to be better and do better, I lost sight of the bigger picture and began thinking and acting like the masses instead of consciously promoting good when I had the chance sitting right in front of me. Literally. I took the easy road instead of the right one and I did it just so I could have a spectacular view of Niagara Falls.
Yeah, that’s it. A view.
If you haven’t been to the iconic falls before, you really should go; they’re stunning. With both the Canadian and American falls visible from the side ‘O The Maple Leaf, there are two views to choose from. This, in and of itself, is well worth the drive to Niagara. However, if you are looking for an even more intimate experience than a walk alongside the misty promenade, the Maid of the Mist boat tours will take you for a 15 minute up close and personal tour by positioning you within feet of the roaring falls. The majesty and grandeur will remind anyone, not preoccupied with snapping selfies, of nature’s spectacular awesomeness.
I opted to be awed and found myself in line for the tour with 50ish people ahead of me, where it was certain that I would have a front row seat. When I finally reached the ramp to the boat, madness ensued as people started getting pushy and aggressive.
There was a bit of a lip between the pavement and ramp which was presenting as an obstacle to a gentleman pushing a woman in a wheelchair. Obviously concerned about holding up the line, and likely feeling the pressure to secure his own good viewing spot, the man was clearly struggling to get the wheelchair over the bump. I could tell by his face that he was slightly panicked, likely from the overwhelm of the crowd. He was bent slightly as his arms attempted to encourage the wheel up over the bump and at the same time his neck craned upwards, pivoting; keeping a nervous eye on his surroundings, no doubt. He had very little room to work with as the eager crowd squeezed past him. Once one of the wheels had yielded to the man’s efforts, there was even less room to maneuver around and people were contorting all stealth mission like between the chair and handrail. I was no different, choosing to contort my body a la mission impossible to keep up with my party so that I could have the very best seat possible.
Too consumed with my human need to get the most out of the $94 I had spent to take the boat tour, I ignored the voice in my head which was urging me to help the man out, and b-lined to the upper deck for the tour. Glancing back confirmed that everyone else was doing the exact same thing, so I settled momentarily with the unsettling notion that I wasn’t the only a-hole running rampant at the falls, no, other people were ignoring the duo with the wheelchair, too. But truth? None of this matters because at the end of the day, I had the choice to make a better decision and instead, I chose greed over love and I’m a donkey’s backside because of it.
I’d be lying if I told you that I didn’t enjoy my ride to the falls. It was just as majestic as I remembered it being when I first took the voyage as a kid, perhaps even moreso now because of how much more in tune I am with Mother Nature and her amazing vibration. But in the back of my mind, shame was percolating. Back at the ramp I had the choice to do something right and in alignment with the person I’m becoming and instead I operated incongruently to fulfill a meaningless desire to get ahead.
I’m not proud of the decision I made and if I could go back in time, I would do things entirely different. One thousand percent. I can’t presently time travel, nor can I personally apologize for my actions. So now what to do?
I’ve made the following list of things to do to help me get back on track. Given I’m not the first or last person in the history of the world to miss an opportunity to do good, perhaps if you find yourself in a similar situation, you too might find this action list helpful:
- Forgive yourself. Sitting in regret isn’t very vibe-a-licious.
- Meditate. Particularly if you need some guidance on how to forgive yourself or even some reflection on the situation in question, I suggest a good dose of ommmm to put everything back into perspective.
- Set a positive intention for your future self like, “I am a helpful, contributing member of society.” or “I help others when I can.” Chances are the universe will throw something atchya so you can perform.
- Be kind. Consider completing a good deed like holding the door open for someone or a random act of kindness. It won’t change what happened in the past, but it will certainly help to raise your vibration.
- Practice self compassion. You’re human, you effed up. So chin up, soldier; now you know where you can improve the next time; don’t go too hard on yourself.
Xo, unleighshed potential